I think there’s something you should know
I think it’s time I stopped the show
There’s something deep inside of me
There’s someone I forgot to be
Take back your picture in a frame
Don’t think that I’ll be back again
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes do not make the man…
…May not be what you want from me
Just the way it’s got to be
Lose the face now
I’ve got to live, I’ve got to live, I’ve got to live
By the amazing late George Michael. xo
As I said before, I am about transparency. This blog is about how I live and what I put out in the world. Everything I write reflects my authentic choices to always be true to myself.
So I quit the radio show and it has nothing to do with the people or the network or the services they provide. It has everything to do with integrity and to keep my life free in every possible way. I said a long time ago, if anybody, and I don’t care about the label (family or friend etc), do not honour my wishes to live the life that I am creating then they don’t have to be a part of my vibration. I didn’t come here to play small in any way, and I have been through way too much crap in my life to keep connections where I know the energy doesn’t speak to the depths of authenticity in my soul.
When I met Doreen Virtue in 2014 she told a story on stage that stuck deeply in me. Before she made it big as the “Angel Lady” she was doing work around child psychiatry and got an amazing breakthrough contract with CNN. She began her spiritual journey and started to broadcast on CNN her spiritual perspectives which CNN wasn’t happy about and they ended her contract. She was upset at the time and said to the Universe that she would only work with giving, kind and authentic people who would support her fully in her calling and her lifestyle. A few years later after she made it “big” CNN signed her again but this time to discuss the spirituality behind her work.
I truly believe I am at a precipice time in my life where I am going to honour what I have been striving for my entire life. Freedom from my abusive past and from criticism and judgements passed down by traditions, cultures and society, telling me what I could and couldn’t do. I proved every single person wrong and I will continue to do so. Here are just a FEW examples, I could write a couples pages worth! LOL
- ” Rena you can’t get a great career without an education” Proved wrong, I manifested an amazing career because the manager had a dream about me. I worked as Business Analyst for the 3rd largest Govt Dept in Canada.
- “Rena you won’t be able to have a natural no medication birth” Proved wrong and did it twice and pulled my 2nd child out of me!
- “Rena don’t write you don’t have the talent” Proved wrong, I have been writing and expressing myself and so many people have commented on my ability to express my feelings into words.
- “Rena you are chunky don’t wear a two piece” Proved wrong and I will show my chubbiness so just look away
- “Rena you can’t suspend your radio show while you travel and you should be prerecording while on your travels or beforehand’ SEE YA LATER!
I have no problems clearing things that no longer serve me from my vibration. Too many years of my life were given away in 2nd chances, and doubting the instinctual knowing inside of me. I have come to a place to choose me every time. I will never do something someone else wants me to do. I’m into collaboration, not a dictatorship! This pattern is dwindling but when it showed it’s ugly head again I was totally aware of it.
This journey is all about me and nobody else!
Yes, yes I must follow the laws of our Government etc. So I must work within some parameters, we all do, but in regards to creating the freedom, I desire in my little ol’ life, no way!
If you can’t work with me and negotiate to honour my lifestyle and where money is NOT the main priority forget it. I am MISSION DRIVEN FIRST. Money just comes because I am a giving honest human. It’s those kinds of humans I work with. Givers. Deep humbled honest people who honour my path and lifestyle as I honour theirs.
In my business, I am always doing my best to do what’s best for my clients. I will ask spirit how to make something work and a solution is ALWAYS presented. I break my own limitations to meet them halfway. If that can’t happen then yes things end, but I am ALWAYS willing to collaborate and customize things for them. I COMMUNICATE with my clients or send emails to set up a time to TALK about issues. I never AVOID. That deep respect is what I am worthy of. No second chances there.
We are conditioned by society to give the benefit of the doubt, but if you are authentic and sure of yourself, you don’t play in that belief system, and I haven’t for a long time! Now if there is an open space to collaborate and work together so both parties are happy? YES, LET’S DO IT. But if you don’t give me that space of allowing and it’s black and white, yes or no…well then I choose to leave that type of situation. I can’t work in black and white. Haven’t you noticed how colourful and vibrant I am??? LOL, I’m riding rainbows over here!
Granted I wasn’t in such a strong space in honouring my vibration back in Jan, but it has grown and expanded in a huge way. The radio show brought me out of my shell and to speak my mind in a radical way. For that I am grateful. It was an amazing time to really be my bold-ass self. So thank you. But I am not sorry for leaving a network that can’t honour my desire to take a break so I can spend some amazing time over the next 2 months travelling, teaching and being with my children. I am blessed I can have 2 months off, and nobody is going to take that from me!
!!!FREEDOM IS TRULY SWEET!!!